Running

(From Denna)

This is just a dump from my depression before exam.

Sorry for the pessimistic words.

Why does this keep happening to me?

Everytime I tried to be good, I always ended up failing.

「Maybe my friend is tired of laughing at you.」 I said to myself.

I know that I am being fooled and fooled day after day. But this is worst more than I expected.

And also, that boy keep running towards me.

He keep running. Keep running. Keep running. Keep running. Towards me.

I wanted to run away from him. But he ended up in front of me. Always, always, always! And it really looks like he is running towards me!

I don't want this. We went to the same school for 10 years. And I don't want to be with him again for the next 2 years.

I'm sick of hearing his voice. His laugh, his foot steps, his chuckle, to the other people. It sounds like he is mocking me. Saying some 「bad」 things to me. But still, no matter how I tried to run away from him, he always happens to be in front of my eyes.

Ah, then brother said to me. 「Maybe you two were already connected together.」

Oh god. Why?

More importantly, Why does this must be happened to me? Why must 「him」?

He is the reason why does I had this kind of disgusting feelings. But also, he is the reason why does my life became this messy!

I just wanna stab him to death in front of his friends. So I can laugh while I'm crying.

And then stab myself while hugging him tight.

Hoping that I ended up being separated from him by god.

And saying the last 「goodbye」 to him once more like the old time.

So he wouldn't tired of running towards me again.