Spamming these stupid tought

(From Dell)

This blog is really inactive loolll, andd alsoo lack of view
of course because we wanna keep it as private as possible

Honestly I wanna joke
but I caught myself this weird feeling
HELLO GUYS

long time no see



I like humans
I love them all just like how I love oxygen

But, the context is different
I like, really, like humans

This feeling is supposed to be one-on-one
But, right now, I like two different humans
The're like my idol..... someone (2) who I really idolize

First, it's a calming human
who is so smart, religious, tall, good looking, and loved
That human looks like, a perfect, tall, but also, cold platinum wall
It makes me hard to reach that human
But, we are connected by class
and somewhat, fate

Second, it's a honest human
Who is smart, charming, friendly, kind, and also, loved
That human looks like, a soft, sweet, colorful, but tightly wrapped marshmallow
It makes me hard to get in touch with that human
But, we are connected by that room
and somewhat, other humans

If we talk about distance, I am much, much closer to the second human
And also, looks like some of my friends "accept" us together
But, if we talk about perfectionism and my prefer, I choose the first human
In addition, my best friends also know that I like that first human since long time ago

If we talk about heart, my heart feels like perfectly divided by two,
one for the first human and the other for the second human

My best friends know nothing about my feeling towards this second human
But probably, my other friends know
I always kept quite about my feeling towards this first human to other friends
But all of my best friends, and even not-really-best friends, know this

Who should I sought? Who should I choose?
If I can't decide, this though will lasts forever
But if I sought both of them, my friends will look at me with disgust
And gaining the new 'Playboy' name

Things are, are those two humans realize this feeling?
If yes, then who?
Are those humans even like me as friend, or even, hate me?
If yes, then who?
Are those humans ever want to be in relationship, any relationship, with me?
If yes, then who?

My head is spinning again.